I often imagine how the world could be and it makes me sad at times. I sometimes imagine how I could be and that makes me sad as well. I tell myself we're both evolving. Evolution usually takes time. If I can evolve myself, that's human evolution that changes the world in some way. Some days I fail. Some days I pass. I give myself credit and avoid comparing. To compare is to almost curse yourself and not acknowledge your own essence. It's like telling the Creator, "you created me the wrong way". It's like saying ''you've given me situations and didn't equip me to handle them, you've given me a body I'm not able to radiate through, you given me traits that are unfavorable''... Comparing is a clever way of being ungrateful. Being ungrateful is a state of devolution, it lacks clarity. 

When I wake up in the morning, clarity is vivid and unbashful. It's like I've just returned from a place where truths are evident and unhidden. I know I've done more than sleep. I visit places that freely expose potentials and possibilities. This exposition isn't solely about me, it pertains to this world. This sense of clarity usually wears off as my day goes on. Lately, it has gifted me with random visits at various times during my day. I'd like to keep it with me all day. This keeping is part of my evolution. You experience this clarity as well. When you wake up, you know yourself better than when you went to sleep. Your body and spirit are excited about the possibilities of the day. If you could write about how you feel, you could almost end every sentence with an exclamation point. 

When my clarity isn't kept, subtle forms of anger take its place. I discovered it's easier to be angry than sad. They both deplete, but one feels more controllable than the other. I know the sources of both. It has to do with impatience. I want things to be how they could be...but I want it now. Not just for me, but for this world. I feel like time is running out for both and this causes anxiety. Then I realize everything is perfect. I'm evolving. The world is evolving. Evolution takes time.